Pages

Monday, October 13, 2014

Lame excuses

It was Sunday morning, I had milk in the stove, and as I looked up at the morning sun way up from the window, I realized I was processing. I wasn’t admiring the sun, the sunshine or the pretty flowers that wave just outside the stove window. I wasn’t even thinking about the milk or Amy. I was processing ‘why I wasn’t in church’. I had too many reasons. Could I have gone? I think yes, it was just amy and me at home. I am known for getting ready, and getting Amy ready in less than an hr. So what were my excuses- Still plenty. 1,2,3,4,5,.. I can tell you it was not in sequence. It was all jumbled up, and I had every reason to stay home.

To give you a sample – Amy slept at 2, Amy woke up in the middle. She’ll be cranky if I wake her up. I have to feed her something. Meaning I need to cook something. No time. Feeding Amy will take time, and it is already late. Service would have started. She will play with people around her. She won’t let anyone listen to the message. She will be cranky. She may sleep in my bike. It is too hot outside.

Huh. It may be true. Or half true. But even then, it still is pretty lame. Lol. I dint even have anyone to give these lame excuses to, but still the mind processes.

When I see around, I see lot of people that way. With excuses. With very lame excuses. Not doing what they can do. Getting up early is one good one 

Excuses are aplenty. It is funny- how your mind works- even before something happen.. if you are not ‘inclined’ to it. What are you giving today?

Amy's litmus test

Give Amy anything. She tests it first. If she likes it, she will do a little Amy dance. She will shake her shoulders, and body like a see-saw. And move her legs in a circle,her giggle and laughter is so sweet.

Once she holds any new thing- she immediately puts in on the ground, and slowly sits on it  If it is big, and a little hard, voila, she is on it! It is funny how careful she is, as she sits. Its even funnier, when the stuff she sits on, gives away and down she falls. If the test passes, she smiles beautifully.

I wish I do that too… I mean not sit on it, but as my friend Carol said, check if God approves it, and then do it. Even if it is as silly as buying a pencil!

I think I should name this blog ‘the pencil test’!

Get out!

Well, I agree that it is not a nice word to teach Amy. But that just slipped my tongue, when I was telling her the Creation story.
Adam, Eve story climax – ended with the punishment of disobeying, and them being thrown out of the Garden of Eden. So I said, God said ‘Get out’.

Though I know, she doesn’t know what it means, she now says ‘get out’, whenever I ask her, ‘what did God say.’
So we begin the story, and I say what did God say, ( to create the universe) she says, with bright eyes ‘Get out, bye bye tata’. And that ends are storytime too..

But thank God, he did not let the story end there. I am so thankful of the promise he gave them- even in the curse! The power of his love, to redeem the world started way back in the garden.
How amazing is that!

Sunday, October 12, 2014

No mercy

No mercy. No surrender. No retreat. No prisoners.. Now what could that be? That was the ad in a WB movie channel for the movie '300'. Oh my my.. I have seen the movie earlier.. Thanks to my memory.. i dont remember much of it except that it was violent :)

But that ad, wanted me to see it. again. The curiosity is triggered, the visuals are powerful, the words are powerful enough, to make you think for a second! Take any ad for that matter, Tvs. Mobiles, drinks. accessories, cars. Acs. Especially food!

Afforable? May be? But it creates the curiosity, longing, eagerness. For someone who was neutral earlier, after seeing the advertisement is bound to have an inclination to it.

How much of an adventure is in the Bible? PLENTY. Victories, Fall of Kingdoms. Stories. Lessons learnt. Incidents. Miracles. Twists. Climaxes. Failures. Impossible stuff. Mind blowing incidents. Unexpected endings. A paradigm shift many times over. Oh my my.. and how many devour the bible voraciously? You have so many translations of Bible. So many Apps. Audio Bible. Large print, For kids, For women. For working moms. For Men. For toddlers! and the best of translator - the Holy Spirit! Yet, I still find many of my friends, who have not even read the full bible atleast once. Why are there no advertisements?

Tuesday, October 7, 2014

Weeee Weee Weeds!

Does anyone plant weeds in their own garden? Silly isn’t it. No one with the right sense would! But a weed needs no special care or effort. It just grows.. Leave the land idle for a while, you get weeds and thorns- in no time!

But on the other hand, a garden- needs lot of effort. Watering the plants, tilling the soil, fertilizing the soil, Pruning, ensuring sufficient sunlight is available for all the plants.. and yes as mom would say it- talking to the plants too! You take conscious effort for all the above. When weeds show up, you remove it- promptly. You discipline yourself, you put effort, time, care, and heart into it.

This analogy that I read in a book, and also in the Bible, is daunting reminder- of how our lives- left to itself could mess up so bad. Weeds do show up, but if you do nothing, it could take over the entire garden. If I am not closer with the Lord, and not disciplining myself to read His word, follow the Spirit’s prompting, pray earnestly, weeds could take over no time. No doubt about it.

Can’t bask in the Lord’s blessing all the time. Can’t relax, taking the Lord’s grace for granted. I need to be on my toes. To love the Lord with all my heart, all my soul, mind and strength!


Friday, August 15, 2014

Weaned Child.

The day, 26 June 2014 will mostly be forgotten. But it gains its significance with the first battle that Amy ( or me) won over. It is purely God’s grace, that I now can say she is weaned child. I have nursed her for almost 18 months. As I write 18 mths, I am awestuck, coz I never had the strength, or imagined 1. I will have a baby. 2. That I will be able to nurse for more than 6 mths. 3. I had also wondered if I will ever be able to nurse her atleast for 6 mths. There had been days, when I thought if I will have energy to do it. I had a desire to do it, and prayed that I will be able to do it atleast for a year. And God honored it. I thank God, and thank him more, for his amazing grace that held me through thick and thin.

Most of my friends, relations, told me to stop once we reached the 1 year mark. But Amy and I enjoyed it. It was a special bond that we had developed. I was excited, that I could soothe and calm her instantly. Of her tantrums, or her bruises, or any of her cries. Instant miracle. I remember there were days when she would have had a bad fall, a cut, with blood all over, and crying on the top of her voice, sobbing, and me holding and nursing her would stop all of that, in under a minute. What Magic! It was more so, when she was sick, with cold, fever or an upset stomach. She would refuse all other food, and her only intake would be b.milk.

Lately she had made it more of a habit- rather than actually getting from it. It was a miracle that we had gone on for so long. I had praying for this period for so long, and God helped us to cross over this phase. Neem oil, bitterguard paste, all made her shrink back. Even now, while in her deep sleep, she reaches for me. The other side of it, was how my body had to go through this transition. Lot of pain, discomfort, uneasiness, flowers, toor dal paste.. and finally free. Amy has slowly got used to it, and she drinks a cup of milk and eats rice at night.

And God has been teaching me a wonderful lesson too. To REST in him, knowing that He’s there for me, that HE loves me, and that He cares. Oh what peace! What Joy in midst of all storm!
Psalm 131:2 But I have calmed and quieted myself, I am like a weaned child with its mother; like a weaned child I am content.

Amy and the Loo..


When sowing teacher was home, she taught her to run to the loo everytime she has to ‘go’. She had been strict, that amy would run whenever she had to go. But once I got home from work, she would pee wherever she stands, and wud give a sorry face. Well aunty was strict and made her to say that she had to go. We slowly transtitioned it to the night time. Without the diapers, she would at times, wake me up saying ‘bathoom, bathoom, or aaai, aaai non stop. Sometimes, she would pee in the bed, and start playing around. Either way it was funny and sometimes hard, as putting her back to sleep took time :P

We had been to periyamalai with the fshp friends, and whenever I had the diaper on, she would force u to remove it.. it was such a pain to get her to remove her shoes/socks/pants/diaper just to get her to pee everytime. The weather was cold, and she peed often!

Back home, I had the diapers on for some more weeks, when I was stopping my nursing her. I got her a pink potty seat and she was all excited. So now, she enters the loo and points to the potty seat and want to pee/poop sitting in the potty! She loves playing with the water, so she pees few drops and pours cups of water on the floor and also on her! It became a pain after she made it a habit, and wanted to go to the loo every 10 mins saying ‘aai, aai, aai’ . She got herself all wet, and caught some cold, and was adamant, and cried her heart out if u pulled her out of the bathroom.. this was worse when we got her to bed at 10 or even after 11, 12. She is so funny.

Recently when we were out shopping, she wanted to go, and Praveen took her outside, and I got her to sit on the store parking lot, and she went! The next shop wasn’t so lucky, she just went right there inside the trial room! But I am glad, and I thank God, for she is almost potty trained, if not 100%. She says clearly when she wants to go, and directs us to the bathroom.. oh she’s so funny!

Amy and her love for songs!

f she is happy and excited she puts her hands as a c curve and turns left and right.

Her favorite list of songs.
Cedarmont Silly songs – this song any time makes her laugh- giggle and jump up with glee. This is one list of song, she has never got tired for the past 8 mths. She just adores them.
Her first love is ‘Skinnymarinky dinky dink- which when sung over and over again, just made her stop whtever she was doing- crying, or tantrums. I have fed her many a times- thanks to the song! This was trick to get her to stop whining in the Mysore DC.
Her other favorites – rocka mysoul in the bosom of Abraham, shoo fly, happy day express, who did, who did, the bear went over the mountain, behold, one door… and many more.. she watches the tv/laptop without blinking! It was quite alarming, so I have got her to see other songs..
Raffi’s songs – I loved them, so played them enough times, to get her to like it :P
5 little ducks.- my favorite
Shake your sillies out – amy’s favorite
Bumping up and down, brush yr teeth, apples n bananans, mr.sun, wheels on the bus.
I have introduced lot other songs too..
Mother Goose club songs—she likes the itsy bitsy spider, dinausaurs have great big teeth
Barney’s song- she loves most of the songs too
Maranatha – Happy day, Today, special special – my favorites
Psalty – Kids praise 5- I love them.. amy watches them too.. and tries to dance.
Adventures of prayer bear – steve greene.
Donut man
Tony- Music man, hockey pockey ( her new favorites!)
So long farewell, do-re – me fa, favorite things, are not something she likes yet.. neither is disney’s mickey mouse, pluto, or any fairy tales… YET!

I got her a tape recorder- so that she listens to them while I am at work. Selvi akka knows to play them, and I have put the songs in the pen drive. She demands the songs, and if she wants to pass the song she says loudly ‘nana,nana’ forcing u to skip the song to her favorite.. she even knows the music of the songs.. J
And boy, does she sing.. she sings in her thotil… and laughs if u spot her singing.. she taps herself on her chest- asking u to pat her or sing to her. She is so little and yet demands in such a stern way!
She makes me play ‘ ring around the roses’ and if u r happy and u know it by saying ‘ashi, ashi’ and ‘appy, appy’J

Amy and the neighbors.


Amy is such a sweet heart that she is friends with everyone in the apartment. She calls them athai, mama, and loves being pampered everywhere. Vivek’s house is where she goes to watch the tv. She eats what akka gives and comes back all happy and excited. She has a balm that she always holds on to, whenever she goes there. She loves the granny in that house and even lies down on her lap and goes to sleep. The ground floor Divya’s family is also another place where she goes and watches tv. ( We have no TV yet)

The parking lot is where the neighbors gather, and amy provides free entertainment. She runs around, the cars, bikes parked there, and they form the perfect hide and seek spot. Our house being the corner, she has ample space to see the cows, buffalos, goats, cats, dogs that go on the street. Not to forget the crows in the area!

Her recent favorite songs are ‘ ring around the roses’ for which she makes me, divya, and granny to play with her. She says ‘ashi, ashi to get me to sing it! She says ‘appy, appy’ to make me sing ‘if u r happy and u know it’ she is one active, naughty girlie! The second floor , has a family, whose relative 2 kids come over to play. She is friends with them too. Deborah, is in UKG, and amy goes and hugs her tight. They play together these songs too. They also play upstairs on the roof. Amy was also friends with tharani , - vivek’s cousin.

Amy and the walk with the goats.


Amy loves cows, dogs. Goats are something that sees at around 6 pm, crossing our house everyday, with an old shepherd. J Yesterday I go home, and I find our neighbours, Vivek mom, Mil, Divya and her mom with amy and dad in the parking lot. Dad had taken her in the stroller since 5.15 pm.

When she saw me, she said ‘nanana’ that I was taken aback. Usually she plays forawhile and then go upstairs, but today, I got her outside with me, and then the goats came. She squealed at them sat on the road and started laughing pointing at them. I let her follow the goats, and off she went toddling along, squealing, much to the surprise of the people on the streets. Everyone’s eyes were on her for sure! So we walked till the goats got into their stall.

I asked the old shepherd, if I can enter their fence to have a look, he nodded. Amy was still squealing and making more noise than the goats and the ducks! Yes there were 4 white ducks and 1 black one. We stood there for sometime and then forced amy back. She saw the hens on the way and was super excited on the way back. Got her a ball and she was on cloud nine :)

We came home and the neighbors were waiting. So we played with amy and her new ball. She wanted us to play ‘ ring around the roses’ and ‘if u r happy and u know it. ‘ and then got back.