kotai

Dad was talking about kotai. Fortress in India. Budda kotai, kali kotai, ramar kotai, tirupati kotai, and that we like Joshua and the Israelites need to walk around these with fervor till it breaks down. And that there will be a day when it will all come tumbling down and nobody  will even remember the name of these forts. 

He also said we should never get satisfied with our life and stop praying around these fortresses. He talked about his experience 30 years back, when while sleeping at night he saw a kali devil at his feet begging not to pray and drive them out. It was pleading not to drive them out. when dad shouted the name of Jesus, it jumped and ran away, he still remembers the dogs barking in that area when it ran away. 

This incident gave him a confidence that ofcource we have the God given authority and the devil in fact trembles when we pray. This encourages him to pray more. 

He also said that this work of praying around the fort is not work of 1 man, but a call for all of us, our future generation, till all the idol forts come tumbling down. The work is not done.

He also remembered Emil , Patrick uncle, Kamalesan uncle who started and encouraged this years back and that though they are not here, they are still praying and joining with us in this prayer.

Father in Heaven

Dad was saying that he says the Lord's Prayer maybe 50 times a day. FIFTY? That seemed crazy. 

I looked at him quizzicaly. My husband says that often, that I thought he was saying it without meaning. Wouldn't monotonous repetitive stuff make it go awry? 

Dad said, the first thing he says when he gets up from sleep is ' paramandalil irukum engal pidhavae'. He pauses there for some time, imagining God in Heaven his throne, the Son our High Priest and the Holy Spirit.  I guess that's his throne room experience.  What excited me was the number of times he goes there throughout the day. He said, when you see me doing nothing, I am most probably saying it in my mind. I never stay idle, for if I let my mind wander devil will get a foothold. 

Now that's something. Throne room, not only during morning time, but throughout the day, whenever you get some time,  you sneek into the throne room! To bask in His presence for that's actually where you belong.  

Dad said, I am already in heaven..though I am still here. 

Bet dad's mind is filled with heaven that nothing on earth shakes him. Lol 

God's mercies -new every morning!

My husband had an accident last Friday. A motorbike guy was looking elsewhere and hit head on, on a turning. My guy usually rides slow. He saw him coming straight and was shouting to get his attention but  in a fraction of second, he was hit and fell on the road. God miraculously saved him from other vehicles on that busy small road in tambaram.
Thank God he had his helmet on and as he fell he had hit the iron railway railing on his left shoulder. By God's amazing grace, though he fell, he had no broken bones. He came home with a wound bulging from his shoulder socket . The size of a 🍅tomato. It was huge and oozing blood. He checked with the doctor next day as the  swelling was big and was painful. But by God's grace the wound healed and the swelling went away.

Few days later, our AC stopped functioning properly. We called the ac mechanic, but he had not yet turned up. So my husband cleaned the vent , blower and the whole room, fan, above the cupboards etc. He had been on the ladder and whn he climbed down he slipped and fell! He hit the cupboard with the full size mirror and it broke. I would have not known of him falling unless with the proof of the mirror crack.

Falling from the ladder is no simple thing. I know that for a fact. (Peter Rabbit influence) it was only God's hands that had held him when he fell from the height. I know of fateful accidents of friends and family of slipping and falling, leading to paralysis, loss of mobility, hospitalisation and even death!

Thanking God for his mercies and love. Though we don't deserve it God is so loving, faithful and compassionate. 

Stories for Children

Names of God.

Stories on God's name Jehovah Shamma, Jehovah Jireh, Jehovah Shalom, Jehovah Rapha, Jehovah Roopa, Elokim, el shaddai.Adonai

James 4:6 Lesson on Pride
“God opposes the proud but gives grace to the humble.”" James 4:6,  

2 Timothy 1:7 Fear or Aut
For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.

James 1:19 Lesson on anger/Listening
Everyone should be,quick to listen, slow to speak, and slow to get angry

PRov 15:1 GEntle answer. 
Colossians 4:6, NIV: "Let your conversation be always full of grace, seasoned with salt, so that you may know how to answer everyone." .
A gentle answer turns away wrath, but a harsh word stirs up anger. 


Luke 6:38 Lesson on giving/sharing
Give, and it will be given to you. A good measure, pressed down, shaken together and running over, will be poured into your lap. For with the measure you use, it will be measured to you."

2 Corin 9:7

 God loves a cheerful giver

Matt 7:12
So in everything, do to others what you would have them do to you, for this sums up the Law and the ..

The sprain

It was Tuesday morning. I was not in a hurry. But 2 of my girls were up.. and I know they'll be chattering for food immediately. My eldest was in bed, on the edge, in order to wake her up.. and get Lilybel some time to play, and especially off my hands so that I can get breakfast ready, I put Lilybel next to Amy. I stretched and must have miss calculated her weight, when I placed her slowly down, that I felt a sharp pain on my back. Yickes. I couldn't move.. I wriggled, and I was able to stand. 
The moment I put her down, she cried, and wanted me to carry her, so I had to stretch with the pain, and that's when I realised I couldn't lift her weight. My wee baby has grown!

That was it! After that I couldn't sit, bend down or stand. Bending down to pick Lilybel is so common, that I found it so hard for every small thing. Sitting down, was even worse.. Whichever position I sat, I had a shooting pain.  I remembered by brother, who had suffered from back pain earlier. It was so terrible.  I couldn't even lie down to feed the baby. Standing was much better. With 3 kids around, bending over to lift toys, books, or a chair was inevitable.

I realised, how thankful, I ought to be for the grace God had given me every single day. To walk, to sit, to lie down, to roll over, to bend over, to turn around without a second thought is grace! Pure grace of God.  God has healed me now. I can move around much better.. but I do feel the piercing pain.. and I know, what I should be doing. Thanking God for all that he had done! Never will I look down at anyone complaining about pain!

Just in time

Corrie ten Boom and her sister Betsie were middle-aged Christian women in Holland when World War II erupted. They resolved to conceal fleeing Jews from the Nazis. They rescued many. But they were eventually arrested and taken to Ravensbrück concentration camp. Betsie died there. Corrie miraculously survived to bear witness to the way in which God can save, heal and forgive.

When asked how to prepare for persecution, she used to tell this story about her childhood: 

‘When I was a little girl, I went to my father and said, “Daddy, I was afraid that I will never be strong enough to be a martyr for Jesus Christ.” “Tell me,” said father, “When you take a train trip to Amsterdam, when do I give you the money for the ticket? Three weeks before?” “No, Daddy, you give me the money for the ticket just before we get on the train.” “That is right,” my father said, “And so it is with God’s strength. Our Father in heaven knows when you will need the strength to be a martyr for Jesus Christ. He will supply all you need just in time.”’

Excerpt from Nicky Gumbel- Bible in one year. 

Flying a kite

Had been a childhood dream... My guy let me fly one during our honeymoon in Cochin.. oh what a day it was!!

Last week Amy was jumping up and down, when a small paper flew. She then experimented with a plastic cover. It flew too.. thanks to fan. Then she tied a thread to the cover and let it fly. Seeing it I thought why not. I asked my guy...there was no response. So I checked some YouTube videos... Looked pretty simple. But didn't have the kuchi to do it.

Asked selvi akka to bring 2. She got a bunch. And today we tried it. It was easy to make. My guy wasn't sure I tied it properly. He said this won't fly. So we took it upstairs. The first one went down and fell into the neighboring bushes. I was disappointed. To try the next one or not... Seeing my girls Glee, I decided to give a last try.

The second one flew. My guy flew it beautifully.. he himself was surprised how strong it was. It crossed the road and into the next neighbor coconut tree.. it flew though stuck but my husband rescued after nearly 30 mins. We played for another 1 hr.

So thankful to God for the gentle breeze and the air we breathe! 

How to- Prayer Guide

Praise & Thanksgiving : 

What can you praise for? Be creative.. Look at David in Psalms!
Names of the Lord, For redemption through the blood of Christ.
For Thomas- the apostle in India! For India in the Bible- twice!
For so many missionaries in India
For blessing the country with lot of natural riches. For being a big democratic country
For loving India and the Indians

Pray for revival! 
That there will be a revival in the end days as per Joel 2
Churches to be revived. Removal of power, selfishness, ritualistics, jealousy and strife in the church.
Spirit of prayer to be poured on Leaders to children in the church. There will be repentence.
That churches will transform into the first century church in Jerusalem.
That all nations come to the salvation Isaiah 52:10
That God will purify us/church/nations like a refiner in Malachi 3:3
There will be thirst for God, a revival and the word of God will spread as in Acts 13:47
All churches to have a revival and be alive in Spirit and truth.

Wrestling in prayer
Bind all the satanic forces that obstruct revival.
- God's children in being selfish and building of 'self' kingdom and not the kingdom of God.
-false preaching/false prophecy, false worship/false miracles.
- spirit of servant, that leads to lethargy, indifference, fills them with worldly thoughts and lowers bp. bible/prayer)
- churches gettng destroyed.
Bind the spirits that instigate sinful acts that provoke wrath of God on nations.
- The spirits that blind people's eyes from the saving Truth.
- spirit of deception, -that makes worship of people
- spirit of black magic, witchcraft
-spirits that trigger adultery, prostitution, lustfulness, homosexuality.
- spirits that instigate drug/alcohol/smoking addiction/pornography/video games.
Bind spirits that control power bringing  communal /religious violence
Bind spirits that induce accidents, abortions, suicidevival, female infanticide, murder etc
Pray for spiritual revival.

Prayer of supplication
Plead for mercy and ask God to forgive as Nehem 1:6,7 and Daniel :4-19 prays.
As 1 Tim 2:4, pray that 138 crore Indians be saved and know the truth.
For children to be protected and to serve as little Samuel.
Youth to be saved from sin, toughness and attractions of the world.
The opposition groups, who demolish churches, kill christians, to be changed like Saul to Paul.
That Bureacrats, politicians of our country, turn towards Jesus like Cornelius and the jailer that Paul encountered. Acts 10, 16
Like Exorcists, magicians, received salvation in Acts 19, let the,
Like Lydia, may the scientists, industrialists, athelets, movie personalities, come to the saving grace.
the people we are associated with, neighbors, friends, collegues,
for family members, who are not saved yet.

Pray for Protection
For families to be united, peace and harmony in families. divorces, misunderstandings, ilicit relationships, split between parents, and with children be removed in the name of Jesus.
For children to be protected from evil.. Their emotional wellbeing, addiction, sinful practises. Human trafficking, girl children especially.
For protection from terrorist.
For protection from neighbouring countries.
For safe water and air.
For those in marine occupation/fishermen
for farmers
For small vendors.
for economy of nations
For health and education dept.


Bless and Pray
that nation to be self sufficient
the rulers, PM, President, HM, Union ministers, Governers, Cabinet Minister.welfare schemes to be good. Parliment and Legislative assembly of states.
those in authority. heads of army, navy, airforce, central, state govt officials, district collectors, tahsildars
Those in Judiciary. regulators of law and order, Supreme court, High court, District court, Family court, Judges and advocates.
IAS, IPS officers, police officials, constables, officials of anti corruption bureau
Election commission of India, election officers, officials of cbi
nation to be free from bribery, corruption,marked with justice , honesty, vote should not be bought, tax payers money to be used wisely, officials to be selfless leaders.
Free of liquor shops ( gujarat and bihar) free of crimes, free of drug addictions, good hygiene.
Increase in job oppurtunities, poverty removed, people live without debts.
industrial growth, increase in exports, achievement in science and sports.

- From 1 hr prayer guide of Jesus Redeems.
https://www.comfortertv.com/downloads-files

Broken heart

I had been to one of Eficor's conference. This was way before, I got married.. So it must be more than a decade... I don't remember much though, but remember the theme in which it was set.

Micah 6:8 And what does the LORD require of you But to do justly, To love mercy, And to walk humbly with your God. There were lot of hangings and pamphlets by this theme. As the program ended, the music was mesmerising..it kept on and on.. that I asked my brother.. what it was.. he said, its run continuously, it gets imprinted in the heart..That was weird, but I liked the music.. It was something about, let the things that break the heart of God, break yours

I remembered a lil and thought will do a search if i can find that song again.. It led me to check few other things.. check it out..
https://www.worldvision.org/hunger-news-stories/blessed-broken-heart
https://www.lifeway.com/en/articles/sermon-let-your-heart-be-broken-jeremiah-8-9

and this probably is the song that was played there..

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y5593AppZNY

Let your heart be broken for a world in need:
Feed the mouths that hunger, soothe the wounds that bleed,
Give the cup of water and the loaf of bread
Be the hands of Jesus, serving in His stead.

Here on earth applying principles of love,
Visible expression – God still rules above
Living illustration of the Living Word
To the minds of all who’ve Never seen or heard.

Blest to be a blessing privileged to care,
Challenged by the need apparent everywhere.
Where mankind is wanting, fill the vacant place.
Be the means through which the Lord reveals His grace.

Add to your believing deeds that prove it true,
Knowing Christ as Savior, make Him Master, too.
Follow in His footsteps, go where He has trod;
In the world’s great trouble risk yourself for God.

Let your heart be tender and your vision clear;
See mankind as God sees, serve Him far and near.
Let your heart be broken by a brother’s pain;
Share your rich resources, give and give again.

From the warfront

I was talking to my brother for the second time since lockdown.. He is a man of few words.. But yesterday was different.. He spoke about lot of things.. and hence this blog.

He sounded devastated. The things that he's seeing everyday is breaking him. Me being in the comfort of my home, with food, shelter, and the luxuries of AC.. could hardly find a word to respond. I just listened. 

He said thousands of people are on the road. Walking to their hometown. He saw a young man... must be 25 years, walking and stopped to give him a ride.. He was on the way to UP from Delhi. By walk! He had no money, no phone. When asked if he ate anything, he said he had food a day ago. My brother had to drop him after about 20 kms, as he had to go in another direction. But his heart was broken for that man, and others he saw on the way. He said, not many stop to help. These people have no other choice but to walk home. Imagine walking with nothing to eat in this weather.

My brother and his colleague drive to Greater Noida, in about 50 mins, which otherwise would take 2 hrs. There they do relief work for about 3000 people. People are in makeshift shelters. They get them food, masks, and other hygenic things necessary. Day in and day out they see people living in bare minimum.

I asked him if he tested for convid. He said he must have got it many times by now, for he's constantly intouch with various people. He quoted dad, ' valzhvadhu sila vara kaalam', You live for few more weeks'. There is nothing to be afraid of. If you die, there will be no burial or friends or around not even a pastor, who probably is afraid of dying.. he joked. He wasn't sure, how long this would go on. If its for a month, then ok.. but after that? Since Covid is in Community phase now, and if things get worse, which they probably will, we have to get ready for mass burial.


Eficor is working in Delhi with Wipro fund, in Musahar community of Bihar with Individual fund. He told me search for them and you'll find how terrible their living is. Just did a google search. Musahar infact means rat eaters. They are downtrodden and struggling for their livelihood. Covid in this mix, is going to be pretty rough.  Eficor is also working in UP, some place he said. They have helped about a lakh peopl.. In another month, they may cover a total of 2 lakhs, but after that? He said, even in Eficor, they had very few people on the frontlines. Can't blame them. Can we? The need is much. the workers are few. May we not stop to do what we can.  We ended the call with a heavy heart. 

May the government be led by God. The king's heart is in the hand of the Lord, as the rivers of water: he turneth it whithersoever he will. Proverbs 21:1