Confused?

A sudden rush of gentle breeze brought a bunch of leaves all over me. I smiled. (yeah, felt like a kid/bride) Looking up, I saw a tree, with not a single green leaf, but with countable brown leaves on its barren branches. Surprised, that Chennai known for having summer throughout the year, could ever have Autumn/Fall around, I checked other trees down the same lane.

I was confused. I saw few dark green trees ( dark green showing its healthy but old leaves), and there were few bright green trees ( they were new shoots all over, and it looked so beautiful) There were other barren brown/yellowish of the same kind of tree( the fall color was so lovely!).. I wondered how they would feel. Wouldn't they be confused? Wheather to wither leaves, grow new ones, or keep the old ones. I hope they dont get inferiority complex!

It just reminded me, of times I/we get confused. Am I in the right place? Did I say the right thing? Did I take the correct decision? Well, what I learn from the trees, is that instead of thinking/worrying/comparing and getting more confused, it is better to leave things as they are and just be content and happy with what we are at. It could be Spring, Summer, Autumn or Winter, at the WRONG time of the year, but when we know, that our times are in His hands, we could just relax. (Psalms 31:15)

'..They will fight against you, but will not overcome you.. 'Jer 15:20 '.. the fire had not harmed their bodies, nor was a hair of their heads singed; their robes were not scorched, and there was no smell of fire on them. 'Daniel 3: 27'He has made everything beautiful in its time' Eccles 3:11

Am I a sadist?

Well, it occured to me when I was running to catch the train, hoping against hope that the train would start late. And it sure did. The funny thing is, if I am early, I expect the train to start immediately, and not wait long in other stations! ( Read: bus/shuttle/auto)

Same thing happens when I am on road and pray that the Railway gate doesnt close, while I cross it. But if am on the train, I just hope that train crosses and the Railway gate remains closed!

Again, while crossing a busy road, I want the vehicles to stop and give way to the pedestrians. But if I am on the vehicle, I press the gas and avoid stopping to let people cross. :( there are so many times, when i just want my way!

I now realise, that I shouldn't be impatient or complain when I am delayed, someone is in a hurry, and when I miss something, I am gonna meet or have a better experience.

"All things happen togethar for good, for those who love the Lord and are called according to His purpose" Rom 8:28. "Do to others as you would like them to do to you." Luke 6:31
and yeah, God can turn all evil to good! so why gripe? ""You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good to accomplish what is now being done, the saving of many lives." Genesis 50:20

The Obvious stuffs!

I had the tomatoes ready and that was when I noticed, none of the 3 knives were around. I scanned the kitchen in sections, but I couldn't spot any last Thursday morning. My eyes then fell on a strange red flat small knife in out dining cum working table and I started using that to cut the veg. SNAP! The Knife though it looked blunt went right into my left forefinger. Blood was oozing out, I stopped its flow with some ice cubes, and continued my chopping,for it was getting late.
SNAP, SNAP! This was my right forefinger and this was painful though it had no blood. Dad had woke up by then and had come to help peeling onions. Elaborating my unsuccessful hunt for knife all morning,I gave him my only red knife and warned him to be cautious. He directly went to the usual place where we keep the knives, and to my amazement right under my nose, there it was!
It was only when mom came, I learnt what that red knife is used for. It seems it is for cutting paper and opening postal covers! No wonder both the edges were sharp and so I've been roaming around in office with bandaid on both my forefingers for 2 days now!

Funny, how obvious things things are missed. May be its time not to "look beyond what you see" hakuna matata style or even the "Beyond the obvious" TCS style! Another lesson for life learnt as I type this blog, sans both my forefingers.

Striking a balance!

Excited or Ground State. This is where I'll be most of the time and I try my best to strike the balance. The thing that induces this may be an event, a person, a news, a surprise, a situation. ( U know how I oscillate now.) Making it simple, the basic thing is expectation. If it is met, am in Excited state. If it is not met, I'll be down and out.

So how do I TRY to strike the balance?
A.First thing, if something upsets me, I put myself in tht person's shoes.
1. Have I done something similar to anyone. ( May be hurt, offended, or given a sarcastic/cutting remarks like someone did to me?)
2. Had I been in their state, may be I would have done the same thing. ( Ans could be yes or no) 3. I cant judge that person at all.. ( I have no other way to point that person. Instead point it to self) ( Matt 7:1)

B. Forgive that person.
1. First step helps put things in perspective. Even if it doesnt fit, just forgive tht person/thing off yr mind.(remember: Seventy times Seven) ( Matt 18:22)
2.The alternative is that we NEED to love the person. So this issue/misunderstanding cant come in the way. God's love is unconditional and we are forgiven.aint it? (John 13:34)

C. Confront the person, with issue, or thing.
1.This is delicate. Most of the times I dont. But if u r close to the person in subject better to tell the person in a subtle way, 'hey I dint like wht u said/did/doing'. 'I expected this/that'. (It could bombard, breach yr relationship, or on the other hands, helps u see thgs fr tht persons perspective, and bond u more)
2.Irrespective of the person's response, either positive or negative, we had forgiven that person/situation beforehand. So be prepared for anything here.

Well, it sure doesnt happen one by one. It happens instantaneously. within our mind, fraction of a second. The people who offend or hurt us a lot are our loved ones, parents, siblings, or our close friends.Funny aint it? Anyway, any relationship know in advance, that we can't expect anyone to be good/to do good, to say the right thing, to be our role model except God. Anne Frank's 'Inspite of everything, I still believe everyone are good at heart' ( Everyone includes terrorist, hypocrites, rapist, drunkards, everyone in this world) is amazing!

And I learn to get excited, not by people who can change any minute, but by small things around me. A monkey in the station, a sunset, a cloud, a
starless sky, anything that God had made.

"Expect great things from God, and attempt great things for God. " William Carey, 1792. [ and I bet, he meant, Expect great things not from MEN, and yr loved ones, but from God alone]