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For someone who thought I would never have a baby to having 2 was  no less a miracle. My husband being obsessed with a baby boy, led me to 'want' a baby girl. And God answered both my prayers. 

My husband's desire to be blessed like Jacob to have a large family was ridiculous to me. He had 4 wives. Go get yours was my anger. I have even blurted it out to my mil on the day my lil girl 2 was born.

Though the major fight we had in our marriage was related to the boy thing, God changed my husband and he was a loving father and husband to my girls and me. The girls adore him. I was happy we didn't separate or live as single mom as I thought my world would be.

He still wanted a boy.And third was ridiculous. Isn't it. So I prayed to change his heart. Then I knew it was me in steering wheel.so I prayed, Lord change him or me. As days went, I happened to meet lot of 3 kids mothers. I was like what's this Lord. You are supposed to give friends to my husband and convince him that 2 itself is hard. 
My daughter's classmates 3 of them had 2 siblings. My fellowship folks 5 of them.had 3 kids. School friends 2 of them.

Then I said OK Lord I give in. Knowing my body I know it was a miracle with the first two. So if you really really want me, give me and the strength to carry it. And so I conceived. But unfortunately in 7-8 weeks there was no heartbeat and i ended up miscarrying. It was heartbreaking. I knew I couldn't ask why, but I was sure he knows best. So then I thought my guy will leave me alone. Looking at how I suffered and how my body was beyond recovery.

It seemed ridiculous to everyone around me. Friends , family. We had two kids..life seemed back to normal. But my guy wasn't done yet. So I was back to the same prayer, as all my arguments ended up, in him answering, don't you trust God? ! I do! But. There was no but.

We also had nearly 30+ girls in our fellowship group waiting on their baby...My request list was increasing..and seeing them waiting for so long , for years together was discouraging... And I was regularly praying for few daily. I know a baby forming is not just a wish of a wife or husband...nor the doctors or medicines or any treatment...it is a gift from God. It is a miracle, how all things come together at the perfect time and bring it to life...How life is sustained in the uterus...and how each organ is formed and the heart beats...the tiny fingers, toes, brain, stomach, eyes , nose, mouth, stomach, lungs...

So I surrendered myself to God...if it's your will, you better give me the strength that's needed. I don't want to fight over it with my husband. I can't be praying for my friends, when I have a rebellious spirit with my husband. And God gave me peace over it. Over all the ridiculous stare and exclamation over our 'third'

So here I am after 18 months later, with a lovely baby. I am 38 and God made it possible! It was an easy thing in the eyes of our God.  And he has blessed us with a baby  girl! And my husband now enjoys  being around with  the trio. So i know for sure God has a plan for our third. And also that there is nothing impossible for God.

Saved again

This is the third incident since a month.
The second was when I slowed down to let a lorry cross me and his tail end, hit my bumper in front. There was a loud noise. In the heavy traffic, was unable to stop anywhere, and by God's grace, no harm to us or much for the car.

This sunday, it was about 9.30 PM. I had both the girls in the front car seat. Giggling and dancing, they were poking at all the buttons on the dashboard. I quickly turned of the engine and took the key, afraid they might meddle some more. I got down to lock the gate, and came to find the girls jarring on the car horn. I chided them and raised my voice and that made them scoot. I was angry that they were not helpful, their bag, shoes, water bottle was on the floor. I knelt to pick them up, and went to the back seat to grab my bag. That's when the car moved.

Shocked I quickly got down, but the car was moving. Unable to comprehend, was even more surprised to see the car going down the ramp and hitting the iron gate. The gate gave way and it was going down hill. I was dragged along with the car, as the back seat car was open. The car gained speed, going down the ramp, and God somehow pushed me away from the door and the path of the car. I had to run, but once I was away, I could turn and see the car in reverse going in good speed, crossing the road and hitting the neighbor's wall with a loud thud. BANG BANG. It was so loud, I could see people looking out of the windows, lights turned on and people from my apt coming down the stairs, to see what the noise was all about. I was shocked. I was angry at the girls. I drove the car back to the parking, and then looked what happened to the car. The bumper behind was all crushed and turned outside.

Since we don't have much space, the car stands on the whim of the ramp. Amy says she touched the hand brake and that Andrea stood on it. Given the safety feature on hand brake, it isnt easy to get it down, unless Amy had played with the button and pulled up and Andrea walked over it. Whatever it be, it was God who guarded the girls from being out of the way and me from falling down and from keeping anyone being hit on the road. I shudder to think what could have happened.

Under his wings we take refuge. Thank you Lord!

Finger Prayer Points

When there was a hurricane in my life, I drifted slowly away from God. But God placed few people in my life, who helped me see what I was missing. My anchor was again Christ, and I was rooted. But I knew I had to pray for my spouse, but I did not know where to start. I even downloaded few things from the net to start with..but wasn't consistent. I forgot midway. But somehow, God taught me to make a customary prayer, just for my guy. So this is my 10 finger prayer point. I extended it for me first now, and it had been a revolution in my life.

Use your fingers, and make your own.. mine is like this!First pray for self and then for your spouse!

1. To relish God's love truly ( the height, breadth and width of it!)
2. To have hunger and thirst for God, and be transformed by the renewing of my/his mind by the Holy Spirit
3. To thank and pray for my/his health
4. To pray for his/my job- For his guidance, integrity and excellence
5. To pray for his/my friends.. Godly mentors at workplace. Specific friends- name them. Buddy and others'
The next ones- are very specific - to areas where you need help.
6. His anger. My selfishness
7. His forgiveness/forgetfulness. My pride.
8. His joy/thankful attitude. No lamentations. My Giving.
9. His ministry- what God has called him to be.
10. To bring out his talent.


I've been praying this daily for more than 4 years now, and my first 2 points have grown into 3 fold-Throne room worshiping the Father, remembering Christ on the Cross( batptism & communion) and be filled in His presence, and the dressing room- Armor of God, and taking a dip in God's ocean of love....

Praise be to God! I've seen God work beautifully in my life and my guy's life, in specific areas of ( 6-8) and delivered us from the struggle! ( explained in another blog)Try it, he lives!